My Diary -- 我的日记
Monday, 12 October 2009
Recently, I was very busy until I don’t have time to do blogging, haha … …
What an excuse … … oops
Haiz … … my workload are overwhelmed … … I can’t breathe now.
Please, give me some oxygen !!!
Anyone would like to volunteer (
pretty girl(s) please !!) … …
Report and report AND REPORT again, oh my goodness, it was a terrible nightmare !!!
Anyway, what can I do ??? Just does what they want lol… …
I just pass my midterm test three week ago, just before my recess week, and one of the papers was tremendously terrible … …
Almost every 15 minutes announce one typo-error… … Can you imagine when you was there ? Can you imagine this was an university standard test ??!! Anyway, this is nothing to do with the university course structure, it just the matter of the professor, the way he organize and the way he asking a question.
May I ask all of you one question ? A question itself contains another unknown question, how were you going to answer ???
Okokok … … it was a history now.
I was happy during the last two month because I knew a lot of friends and go through a lot of activities, such as night cycling, workshop and etc. It was fantasy, a
BIG THANKS to my non-CCA community – Cross-Culture Community (CCC). Eh … … I know it is a bit weird when pronouns in Chinese dialect, it sounds like “die die die” … …
I feel tired now… … my heart was tired… … my brain was sleepy… …
together with a pained body… …
I was upset and disappointed when I heard someone say he does game programming since 5 years old… … Nothing to say and I don’t know whether is true or false.
My heart was coated with Ice… … so COOL
And, my eyes was filled with tears !!
Can someone give me a hug (
again, pretty girl(s) please) ??
I learn programming nearly 4 years and I used programming around 3 years but I still can’t create a fantasy game like C&C or Warcraft !! What a shame for me !!!!!!
Is that only the game logic problem ? NO, it was the graphics problem. I can’t draw out what I was imagining… … perhaps, I don’t have enough art sense…
I still remember he also said that “Because I don’t have enough time, so a lot of games had been postponed”…
I don’t know how much he understands the programming and how it works but I knew that he able to create a game with graphics.
What a shame for me again!!!
I learnt compiler design, artificial intelligence, visual C #, visual basic, Java, C, C++, XML, HTML and XHTML, JavaScript, XNA programming and even out of field, assembly language, MATLAB, adobe flash and a lot more, but I still can’t create a perfect game!!
The most successful game I created was Sudoku (left with automatic map generation).
He just came in university with A-level as compared with me, a diploma holder + self-learning skill, but he was able to do what I can’t furthermore he still younger than me.
Can you feel what I’m feeling now ? It was pain and speechless … …
Both of us learn visual basic by ourselves but I been defeated.
Perhaps you will say it is not a big deal for someone learns the programming language yet can’t create a game but, for me, it was terrible and it was my dream. I can’t fulfill my dream !!
When my dream can be fulfill ? I have been waiting here so long … …
For a perfectionist, it was a nightmare … it was hurt too !!